Episode 8 (14 wks): Jehova Adonai, The LORD Our Sovereign

The next hours and days were so very long, as I continued to bleed heavily at home. There was so much information to dwell on as I did nothing but lay flat on my back, and in the constant forefront of my mind was the fact that my doctor was not as hopeful as she had once been...and she was not incredibly hopeful to begin with! She knew it would be a miracle if our baby survived. There were too many things going wrong. She was not hopeless, just not as hopeful. I know she wanted my heart to be prepared.

So while I was laying there, alternating between fretting and trusting, sleeping and praying, the Lord gave me two things to comfort me: a passage of Scripture and a song. How kind the Lord is to anxious little girls. He knew just how much I needed reassurance, not that everything was going to be okay, but of His character, His proven character that is unchanging.

I Samuel 1:26-28

(Hannah, who was barren, prayed to the Lord for a son. He answered her prayer, and now that Samuel was weaned, Hannah brought him to the temple to live with Eli the priest, just as she promised God she would.)

"'As surely as you live, my lord, I am the woman who stood here beside you praying to the LORD. I prayed for this child, and the LORD has granted me what I asked of him. So now I give him to the LORD. For his whole life he will be given over to the LORD.' And he worshipped the LORD there."

This baby is God's baby, first and foremost. No matter what the outcome, he is God's baby, the child I prayed for, and he will be given over to the Lord for his whole life.

The song is an oldie but a goodie sung by Babbie Mason. It was one of our family faves as I was growing up. The lyrics are so wonderful and hopeful and true:

Trust His Heart
"All things work for our good

though sometimes we can’t see how they could.

Struggles that break our hearts in two

sometimes blind us to the truth.

Our Father knows what’s best for us;

His ways are not our own.

So, when your pathway grows dim,

and you just can’t see Him,

Remember He’s still on the throne.

God is too wise to be mistaken.

God is too good to be unkind.

So when you don’t understand,

when you don’t see His plan,

When you can’t trace His hand,

trust His heart.

He sees the Master plan.

He holds the future in His hands.

So don’t live as those who have no hope.

All our hope is found in Him.

We walk in present knowledge,

but He sees the first and the last.

And like a tapestry, He’s weaving you and me

to someday be just like Him.

God is too wise to be mistaken.

God is too good to be unkind.

So when you don’t understand,

when you don’t see His plan,

When you can’t trace His hand,

trust His heart."

I can trust my God's heart with confidence! I know His heart and it is only good. My God is sovereign. In Him alone is my hope.